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I just deactive my Facebook and that's sounds so LOSER right ? But I don't fucking care what others people think. Now I just stand up with my two feet on the ground and made by decision. Plus Fb is not everything in ur life. It's just a social network that just waste ur time. U have to cope with all people behavior , u found an annoying comment and u start to cursed that people. U received an annoying comment and you like want to give a punch to that person. People, ur high blood pressure getting high with that social network that just can burn in the hell. Anyways I like to laugh when I want to deactive that bloody fb and it say that this person , that person might miss u I am like , what the fucking hell that the person miss me ? They don't ever realise whenever I ever existed in that fb , HAHA so funny isn't ? Hmm. I don't know , people that are close to me seems want to go far away from me. They are busy with their life.

They don't even want to care about me. I do lot of sacrifice for them and this is what I get at the end. I know maybe this is Allah punishment to me fall all those sin that I ever done. That's all I think. I don't want to blame this , blame that and the one that should be blame is me actually. Because if I don't do that thing , this thing would not happen , ouhh maybe something like that *sigh ! I know maybe I might loss my best friend because I already give-him-a-big-brainwash and he don't like that , I know but who cares ? Ur heart will be proud of u if sometimes u follow them but always is not healthy because people use to said "Ikut hati mati , Ikut rasa binasa" but if SOMETIMES it good because maybe ur heart once it true and you should just follow them .

And for my own seek I'm still have my girlfriends which is Ku nur , Sha , Ama , Sai , Nadz , Fiqa and etc. And boys ? hmm I don't want to know ! I know I'm not the everyone favourite girl and I am not shy about that. I can pray to Allah that one day I can found someone that really suit to me. The one who loves me because of Allah and not because of lust. I know one day , someday Allah will hear my pray and fulfill it. I hope so :) Now I have to concentrate with the books that I've read and I'm planning to borrow one more book which more to islamic :) And I want to make a phone call to Zimas which is a driving class and maybe start next week. I just can't wait for that HAHA. I hope I can pass and can drive , weehhoo haha.

Allah , please help me not ever look back to my past because it really hurt me , seriously and I hope that I can further my study to abroad maybe. I want to take a dentist coarse and I hope for that I can get a good result , pray for me everyone :)