Tears :'(

Last night , I help my mum to make London Almond cookies for Hari Raya . There's was a lot of order from siblings , friends and a lot (!) . I was OKAY , I sympathy to my mum , at night make that Almond London until 1 a.m . Hmm -,-' but smalam jugak I was NOT-SO-IN -THE-MOOD. So , I want to apology to my mum if I ade scold Wan & Kirah *my younger sister and brother . Hmm -__- dorang degil sangat la mum . Ya Allah , aku takut sangat kalau mum terasa aku marahkan dorang sebab tak nak buat keje . Is not like that , I was just . . . I dont know . Maybe samalam first day period andand this month lambat sikit , tu yang maybe yeah hormone tu tak stabil so , I always find the wrong with them . GRRRR :S . Tapi tetibe my mum tanye ;

Mum : Esok kamu tuisyen tak ?

Me : Tuisyen .

Mum : Pukul brape ?

Me : Entahlaa

Mum : Eh , takkan tak tahu ? kan kat rumah cikgu tu kul 4

Me : Yeh ? Ouh yela tu .

Mum : Takkan tak ingat ? *still asking

Me : Entahla , da bosan

Mum : Nape nie asyik bosan je macam orang takde matlamat hidup .

Me : *I feel want to cry :'( Hmm , entahla , asyik bende yang sama , apa yang Ida buat Ida rasa kadang-kadang HAPPY , kadang-kadang suram

Mum : Mane boleh macam tu , orang macam kamu nie cepat tua *-_____- kamula yang kene ceriakan hidup kamu , kalau tak sape lagi . Jangan asyik carik salah orang je , sebenarnya kamu yang salah

Me : *Silent & tears almost drop one by one

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I know I was soooo BAD right ? Mum , I was so sorry if I hurt ur feeling , I did'nt mean to do that . All this while pun , I was tring to cheer myself but I couldn't . Yeah , ketawa di luar , rasa di dalam . Actually , I was okay :) but sometimes , hmm I'm a teenage , kecik lagi kan , Haha . Kadang-kadang aku memberontak , tapi mum watlek je , that's my problem , bukan mum tak perlu tahu , tapiiii Ida tak nak mak risau , Ida ok .

Semalam asyik 'crying' je , nape ni Syida ?